South Jeff Family,
I sat in the preschool room at Scottsville Christian Church, organizing the classroom. It was dark outside, but I had not even noticed as the time had passed because I was caught up in thinking about ways we could improve the preschool ministry. After the years of fighting for the students I had grown to love, I realized my time was coming to an end; in 9 short months, I would be moving to Johnson Bible College to begin studying elementary education.
But, looking back, I am afraid that somewhere along the line, I lost sight of the real mission. I lost sight of my real responsibilities. "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23). These words stare back at me as I make plans for this year's New Years' resolutions. What does it mean to guard my heart? I think the real question needs to be this: what god am I serving? Are we serving the god of significance, the god of satisfaction, the god of safety, or the true, living God?
Most commonly in ministry, we bow to the god of significance. We pass up Sabbath because there just "isn't time". We develop strategies to save people. We neglect the Holy Spirit's leading because we feel we know best.
Other times, we bow to the god of satisfaction. While we maintain a front of godliness, we live lives far from godly behind the scenes. Many in ministry have fallen to infidelity to their spouses.
In addition, we disguise our worship of safety with "prudence". We hide our idolatry behind other labels, not being willing to follow the Holy Spirit to unfamiliar territory. We are afraid to befriend someone different than us because our goal is not God's glory, but rather the knowledge that we won't get hurt.
And somewhere in the midst of this, we have a moment where we fix our eyes on the living God. And for a moment, usually only a moment, we walk on water as we trust that the God of the Universe has the God role covered, and we, like Peter, allow ourselves to just be with Him. These are the moments that define a church, a ministry, and a person.
Pray for us in this upcoming year, that we will trust that God is God, and we are not, and he has that role covered. Pray that the students will see lives that are content to drink in his Word and to allow his Spirit to direct our lives. Pray that God will continue to convict adults to step out of their comfort zones and to trust Him enough to love on our kiddos.